Thanksgiving, Dark Moon and Banishings

Hello everyone! I know I am really bad at keeping up with this blog, I have usually been bad at blogging in general because naturally I am not much of an open person when it comes to social networking, but I feel like this is a good practice for me because it helps me to open up as a person and it also helps me to reflect upon myself and how much I have grown. I used to keep a diary, but like with blogging, that usually never turned out so well either!

First off, I would love to wish everyone a blessed Thanksgiving day! If you don't celebrate this holiday, then I just hope you have a wonderful day in general! Today I am celebrating it with immediate family members and also with friends of the family that I personally do not know very well because my family became friends with them during my year and a half at my current college. Though, perhaps I will get to know everyone better once I transfer closer to home! I am just taking a little break from everything right now because sad to say, when it becomes my special "time" of the month, I become moderately depressed, nothing to severe but it just makes me want to be by myself at times and just cuddle in my bed and watch movies! :) But as this is the day of family and giving thanks, I feel the obligation to spend the time with my family whom I am very thankful for!

Now, not only is Thanksgiving today, but tomorrow night is the Dark Moon, Nov 25. But seeing as I am having a whole bunch of friends that I have not seen in a long time coming over tomorrow, I will be having my ritual tonight. Now the Dark Moon is a time for rejuvenation, for banishing of the old and welcoming the new and change as well. So tonight, not only will I honor Hekate who is my matron goddess and the goddess of change, but I will be doing a banishing spell on the negativity that I cannot seem to shake. It revolves around a person in my life who is very self absorbed and thinks she can do nothing wrong and that everyone else is wrong and she tries to make everyone pity her and hate the victim. Well she has been doing this to me, with no good reason. I try to be civil and such and I just brush it off, but my tolerance with her lying and rudeness towards me is dwindling down to the last straw.

In order to help me last the two weeks in which I have to return to college, I am going to do a banishing of the negativity in my life that is revolved around her so that my emotions of irritation can be replaced with pity for the person because all she is doing is harming herself and others around her and she really has no clue and I feel sorry for her because of that. Also, I recently stumbled upon a quote by the Dalai Lama that was very inspiring,

“You must not hate those who do wrong or harmful things;
but with compassion, you must do what you can to stop them —
for they are harming themselves, as well as those who suffer from their actions.” 
― Dalai Lama XIV
This quote inspires me, I have always looked up to the role the Dalai Lama has played in humanity and it inspires me to do my best to be as compassionate and as forgiving as I can be. Though unfortunately me I have not reached Nirvana and therefore it is tougher for me to be as altruistic sometimes, but I am doing my best and I aspire to get there some day!

So, to help me become more of an altrusitic and compassionate person, I am going to banish the negativity. I have tried to meditate and make a conscious effort to get rid of this negativity myself without the aid of magic, but as I've said, my tolerance is almost gone and it is really hard for me to shake the feeling of resentment I get when thinking of this person because of all the wrong she has done to me and all the pain and stress she has caused.

I'm doing a simple paper burning ritual and burning banishing incense. I have never done one of these before because usually I was able to get over it because I didn't see the person 24/7. In this case, I am seeing the person all the time and her negativity just fills up the apartment and makes it had to sleep no matter what cleansing I have done.

On a lighter note, I really hope you guys have a wonderful night. <3

Namaste and Bright Blessings!

I'm really bad!

I'm really bad at posting on my blog, I'm really sorry guys! I have been so busy these past couple of weeks! I just had time to post two videos onto my new channel last night and things have just been really difficult! I'm having issues with my roommate, and it isn't only me. She is very self absorbed to the point she doesn't see that she is pushing everyone away. I am also missing home like crazy! I am actually hoping to transfer to a new university next semester that will allow me to live at home, find a part time job and  is just cost effective!

If you haven't heard about my new channel on YouTube, it is named after this blog, SolitaryWitchTracks. The reason why I made the new channel is that I went through a huge spiritual transformation/shift. I used to consider myself a Wiccan, yet for the past two months or so, I have been growing uncomfortable calling myself a Wiccan and I felt spiritually confined and penned up in a little box. Now I consider myself and eclectic Pagan and I currently draw ideologies from Hinduism and Buddhism, but I want to look into my ancestry and pull from that. Right now I am looking into my mother's side, she is Filipino and my great grandmother was an Ifugao, or an indigenous Filipino and I really like what I have been reading up on so far! The most I know right now is the native dance rituals which were taught to me when I was younger. I think it would be really amazing to draw from that.

Once I am able and have the money, I want to start looking into the paternal lineage of my family. I know the origination of my last name is from the UK such as Britain, Ireland and Germany.  I'm curious to see if my ancestors on that side had any great spirituality, I am also curious to find out if I have any ancestors who were Native Americans as I would love to start learning about Native American spirituality and beliefs.

Lately I have felt that I have been in a spiritual rut, that is until today. I was in the middle of doing homework for World Literature I and had an epiphany on how I view the divine and the universe through my new spiritual path. I will have to post the notes I made in another post, but for now I will keep this a simple update.

I love having Hekate as my matron goddess and I am finalyl starting to find my own roots as an eclectic Pagan and Witch, wish me luck! Brightest Blessings, Namaste and love and light to you. :)